09 March 2014

Updates!

By: Jessica B.
Tagged: Random

Hello everyone! Yes, it’s been a little bit again since I updated here, but, well, things have been busy.

And they’re still busy, so I wanted to take a few minutes to check in here and post a few updates because it’s March! What? How did that happen?

  1. I GOT PROMOTED AT WORK. Yes, in case you don’t follow me on Facebook or Twitter, it’s true. I am officially a Vice President. I opted not to tell a lot of people about the news, probably because it still doesn’t feel real. But it is, and hopefully will keep being as exciting as it feels now
  2. First race of 2014 is in three weeks! I’m running the Shamrock Shuffle 8K in Chicago. First time doing that race and I feel pretty ready. Just hoping it’s warmer out and/or no snow on the ground this time
  3. So, the good news with my promotion is that I get more vacation days! But, that means I have A LOT to use in a short amount of time so….to celebrate the promotion I am hitting the road and visiting Paris, Bordeaux and Amsterdam. I went to Paris about two years ago and just loved it. And I’m excited to go back (and of course, indulge in French food and wine)
  4. Unrelated, I am OVER winter. Seriously, I need this to just end. Hopefully now that we’ve moved the clocks forward, that will help
  5. I AM GOING TO BE AN AUNTIE!!! We find out before the end of the month if I will have a niece or nephew. And I cannot wait. Once I know the sex, it’ll be SHOPPING TIME. I’m at an 11, I am so excited
  6. Finally, I am addicted to Redbox. Thanks to winter and the cold, I have been hibernating a bit more and catching up on movies I’ve missed, such as: Don Jon, Captain Phillips, Spectacular Now and Dallas Buyers Club. Some have been better than others, but for $1.20 each, no complaints here

How are you guys? What’s new with you?!

27 January 2014

What you deserve

By: Jessica B.
Tagged: Random

Disclaimer: I’m talking about feelings in this one.

As part of the new year, I’ve been thinking about my goals and changes I want to make to keep me on the good path that I’ve set forth for myself. This means addressing my issues, dealing with my depression and trying to find out who the real JB is and what she wants.

And one topic that’s come up in this journey has been about what I deserve, and what I want.

I’m not a selfish person. I give. I love deeply, feel intensely and dream big. But, when it comes to thinking about me and what I want, I am a little stinted in my growth.

Growing up, I spent so much time worried about others. What they thought, how they felt and how I could keep them close. Sometimes, that meant being loyal to or loving those who didn’t deserve it, or didn’t give back. And I took what I could because it was better than nothing.

But now, what I’ve been seeing on my road to wherever it takes me, is that those relationships only gave me crumbs of love, affection and friendship. And while that can be temporary, sometimes, that’s just who people are. And knowing how I feel and love and care, they take, rather than offer a shred of what I do back to me.

So I’m settling for crumbs when I deserve so much more.

I deserve someone who loves me for me. And I deserve friends who are really there for me and reciprocate friendship. I don’t want the fade in and out, I want someone who is there and present.

And in evaluating some relationships in my life, that means cutting some people loose. One of which, is bittersweet. It took a lot of thinking and counsel from my closest friends to put myself first and what is best for me. They reminded me that there is so much to love about me and that I deserve that, in addition to want that myself.

So I said goodbye to someone I loved a long time ago but only got crumbs from after. And a certain point, I just had to stop.

Because for the first time in a LONG time, I love me more. And I deserve more.

Realizing what you deserve is liberating, but cutting those loose who don’t align with it, is harder. But only for now.

 

 

26 January 2014

New favorite weekend activity

By: Jessica B.
Tagged: Food

Breakfast was never my jam (pun!)

Sure I would eat breakfast but it mostly consisted of a granola bar, piece of fruit or whatever else I could get my hands on. It just wasn’t the most important meal of the day. In fact, when I travel, dinner is the only time I really SIT down to eat.

But, with me starting to run, turns out breakfast is really important. Learned that after I nearly passed out at the gym on the treadmill because I was running on an empty stomach.

So despite my previous hesitation to make and eat breakfast, I started coming around to it. And now, it’s one of my favorite weekend morning activities.

Yes, I get up, get coffee going and make breakfast. And then I sit in the living room w/the TV off, no music and read while eating.

It.is.heaven.

Okay, I’ll admit I don’t mix up a lot of what I make, but now I’ve added a little serving tray to escort my breakfast in to the living room and I feel so fancy!

Guess old habits can change :)

20 January 2014

Golden Globes Fashion Recap (very late)

By: Jessica B.

Eeek yes this is a week late but, things have been a little crazy IRL. But not in a bad way (shockingly).

So the Golden Globes were last week and I had red wine, smores and pizza ready to go. It’s like treat yo self, award ceremony style.

You guys know me well enough to know I love award shows so let’s dive in! (Photos can be found at Mashable, The Wrap and Gossip Center).

My Favorites

Lupita Nyong’o – FLAWLESS from head to toe. Stunning shade of red, perfect fit and perfect minimalist jewelry. Amazing.

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Margot Robbie – First, I’ve seen her naked in Wolf of Wall Street so I feel like since we’re intimate buddies, she gets a pass. Plus I love the jewels on the dress

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Cate Blanchett – Always taking risks and the frothy, light nature of the dress just was stunning

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Olivia Wilde – Kerry needs to take note because this is pregnancy awards wear done right

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Julianna Margulies – Love the simple gold detail on this dress. Plus she made fun of Seacrest for bitching about the 50 degree weather in LA. Love you girl!

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Kerry Washington – Drab, boring and the worst half-vest. Olivia Pope would be disappointed (and wearing opera length gloves)

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Jennifer Lawrence – I still want to be her BFF but this is just boring. I could recreate it with a sheet and two large black bands and/or bungee cords

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Zoe Saldana – Just because a designer calls and says this dress is for you, doesn’t mean you should wear it. Also, to quote Gloria, “it’s like the scraps from a sale bin.” Truth

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Lena Dunham – Great color, bad fit and her boobs are begging to be flopping around like they do on Girls. Just..no

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Paula Patton – This is just too easy. But, I can’t decide if it’s a gill or a sperm. Both are valid options. That said, she’s still married to Robin Thicke so maybe that thing is a “fuck you” to all of us

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Honorable fashion high fives go to Emma Watson in pants and Julia Roberts making menswear meets red carpet.

And, Amy and Tina yet again killed it. Too bad that out of a 3 hour show (okay, 2 hours 15 minutes with commercials), Amy and Tina were ONLY on for 16 minutes. Such a waste!

Anyhow, hope you guys enjoyed the show too.

 

 

 

 

08 January 2014

Sons of Anarchy

By: Jessica B.
Tagged: television

One word: Addicted.

Last holiday season, while my regular shows were on hiatus, I surrendered myself to Breaking Bad, and emerging a huge fan, although late to the game.

This year, it was Sons of Anarchy, and holy fucking shit it is GOOD. Gritty, violent, dirty and awesome, with LOTS of tattoos and facial hair. And normally that stuff isn’t my thing when I’m attracted to guys but I want ALL of the sexy time with Jax Teller.

In fact, I burned through all five seasons on Netflix within two weeks AND am now searching for the current season online….illegally (don’t judge).

I don’t know what it is about this show but I cannot get enough. Sure, I nearly spit out my breakfast when Otto bit off his own tongue (yeah, you saw it), covered my eyes when someone was shot in the head, and then a couple had sex next to the body (I mean, when you’re in the mood…) and shuddered at a brutal prison scene.

The thing I love about shows like this (similar to Friday Night Lights and Breaking Bad) is that you end up caring about the characters. You may not like what they do, but you get it, and you root for them.

So, on Saturday when a very sad thing happened in season 5 of SOA, I texted my brother and Katelin (also super fans) crying, and then cried to my brother over the phone. Seriously you guys. ALL OF THE FEELINGS.

If you haven’t started watching yet, please do!! First season is a little slow but then it picks up, and it’s great.

Game on FX.

YOU’RE ON NOTICE!

  • Early holiday decorations (not before Thanksgiving!)
  • Muffin tops (not the bakery-kind)
  • Bar Louie restaurant
  • Laundry machine hogs
  • County sales tax (10.25 percent - come on!)
  • Michael Scott
  • Harry & David
  • Chicago meteorologists