Recently, I heard a friend use the phrase “nothing tastes as good as skinny feels” as her mantra to lose weight and I was really taken aback. Sure, I’ve heard it before, but after letting it rattle around in my brain, I was pretty disturbed by it.
I hate that phrase, partially because it’s true and partially because it’s sick.
As someone who is an emotional and over eater and can’t say no to food, I’m all too aware of how amazing the “skinny days” feel and that they are sometimes too few and bar between.
On my skinny days, I can’t help but touch my stomach (because it feels flat!) and put on the tighter shirts sans cardigan because damnit I’m feeling skinny and want to show it off!!
But along with this high, comes the nagging fear. The fear that it won’t last, which can turn food into the enemy because rather than nourish or satisfy you, it is the one thing that can ruin how great you feel.
Or you don’t deny yourself because if you’re feeling great today, that means you will no matter what you eat right? Tootsie Rolls? Sure! A few more snacks here and there? Why not? You’re looking hot and surely ONE snack won’t change that?
That is until you wake up the next day and you don’t feel so skinny. Add on hormones and that euphoric high is knocked down to size and it takes your self esteem with it.
The truth is, women’s weight fluctuate very easily. I look at a cookie and I start retaining water or even touch a Tootsie Roll and my hips start to grow. And even if you switch to all veggies or stuff your face full of gum to curb the craving, your weight will still fluctuate, no matter how much you try to stop it.
Yeah, being a woman is TOUGH.
Skinny does feel great, but you know what doesn’t: hunger. And the kind of hunger that makes you start to lose your mind or turn into a 24/7 b*tch while trying to achieve something you may have all in your head.
And I gotta say, I’m going to quote Nene from RHOATL (I can’t believe it), because her quote, “I’m a size 10. I could be a size 8 if i wanted to, but i’m effin hungry,” is SO true.
What about you? Any thoughts?