02 August 2012

Taking back control

By: Jessica B.
Tagged: Random

That is my new motto.

As a Type-A, anal retentive, perfectionist and people pleaser, control is something I struggle with.

I’m either totally in control of a situation or I have given myself completely to helping, entertaining or taking care of others, that I don’t even remember to take care of myself.

Lately, I haven’t been in control.

I’m willing to bet that traveling, lack of sleep, hormones and overindulging in vices were what pushed me over the edge. It was only a matter of time until I hit the wall and the running around and half-heartedly trying to keep it together stopped.

Well, last weekend I hit that wall and it ended with me in not a great place.

It wasn’t pretty, but it made me realize things had to change. And Monday, it did. That meant making changes mentally, physically and emotionally.

So when I had drinks with my platonic life partner and told him the good and bad as of late, I said out loud, “I’m taking back control.”

And he didn’t laugh because he saw the look on my face and knew I was serious.

I’m not going to lie and say it’ll always be perfect or easy or that I’ll be able to say no to the temptation, but I sure as hell am going to try.

This weekend is all about treating myself (aka treat yo self JB-style). That means a nice dinner at home, relaxing, and taking myself out for lunch and a movie. It’s time to focus on me for a while and block out everything else. Dad said so and he is 100% right.

And I could not be more excited for it.

Big weekend plans for anyone else?






  1. caryn says:

    YOU GO GIRL! I fully support this! in fact, i’ll join you on this. I want to see the new batman movie, so I might just take myself to see it soon.

  2. My plans are to eat Taco Bell and watch Friends in bed.

    Not the MOST thrilling (or healthy) plans – but Mike is out of town, so I gotta take advantage of it! ;)

    Excited for you to take back control. Get it!

  3. allison says:

    Rock on my Chicago friend!

  4. Jaime says:

    i agree! the last 2 weekends i’ve been running around here and there, busy week all week..i cannot wait to just CHILL this weekend. Enjoy yours! :)

  5. I made this same decision last Sunday morning! I told myself that I needed to first take a “chill pill” and then start getting things back on track. we’ll see how things go…

    as for the weekend, I’m headed back to jersey and NYC for a little girls’ weekend. cannot wait.

    good luck to you on taking back control and have a good weekend!!

  6. Kez says:

    Good for you!
    My weekend is going to start with celebrating my mum’s birthday – brunch at their place :) I’m bringing cake. Is cake allowed at brunch? Too bad it is now!
    Other than that, I’ll just be chillin’ with the Little Mister :)

  7. Ashalah says:

    I’ve been doing exactly this for the past month and I’ve never felt better. It’s been a long time of not taking care of me and it took it’s toll. This month of me time and taking back control, as you call it, has been just what I needed. Good for you for recognizing it and acting on it. I think that’s the hardest part, breaking that comfortable cycle! Cheers to you! :)

  8. You do you, boo! I don’t have any exciting plans, but work. When Sunday hits, I am going to CLING to my Walker. I dunno if CB will be back in town, but if I can cuddle with one of my boys, I’ll take it! Hope your weekend is nice…