While getting ready last night, I noticed a lot of Facebook friends sharing their thoughts of 2012 and their hopes for 2013. And it inspired me to do the same, but for a few reasons, I didn’t want to be as vocal on Facebook, so I kept mine short.
But I wanted to elaborate on it a bit more here.
I am not sad to see 2012 go at all because I’m ready for a reset, a new start. 2012 had a lot of highs but also two crushing lows.
It was a test, a test to see how much I could handle, both personally and professionally and it broke me.
The lows of 2012 have left me completely broken, both my spirit and will, and I am still struggling to pick up the pieces and find my fight again. But I know it’s there.
The highs of 2012 were so high: Paris, Hawaii, London and Sundance, but the lows were unfortunately greater than those.
People put a lot of pressure on NYE, what you’re doing, who you’re with, are you getting dressed up, are you getting kissed, are you going to be able to get a cab, etc. And yes, I think about that too, but the reason I love NYE so much is because I choose to see it as closing one chapter and opening another. I need to close 2012 and open 2013 because I need something to kick start the changes I want to make (and started making already) and help me feel like I can put the tears, anger, sadness and frustration in 2012 and carry only the happy memories with me to the next year.
What I want in 2013 is to get back to me. To fix the things that I don’t like and to explore the things that interest me. This may mean, going alone for part of it, or losing some things currently in my life.
I’ve already made a list of my goals for 2013 and I’m ready to get started.
I don’t want to spend 2013 as unhappy as I was in 2012. I want it to be so much more. And I feel so hopeful for that, and that is what I want to hold on to.
Happy New Year’s everyone!!!