01 January 2013

2013

By: Jessica B.
Tagged: Random

While getting ready last night, I noticed a lot of Facebook friends sharing their thoughts of 2012 and their hopes for 2013. And it inspired me to do the same, but for a few reasons, I didn’t want to be as vocal on Facebook, so I kept mine short.

But I wanted to elaborate on it a bit more here.

I am not sad to see 2012 go at all because I’m ready for a reset, a new start. 2012 had a lot of highs but also two crushing lows.

It was a test, a test to see how much I could handle, both personally and professionally and it broke me.

The lows of 2012 have left me completely broken, both my spirit and will, and I am still struggling to pick up the pieces and find my fight again. But I know it’s there.

The highs of 2012 were so high: Paris, Hawaii, London and Sundance, but the lows were unfortunately greater than those.

People put a lot of pressure on NYE, what you’re doing, who you’re with, are you getting dressed up, are you getting kissed, are you going to be able to get a cab, etc. And yes, I think about that too, but the reason I love NYE so much is because I choose to see it as closing one chapter and opening another. I need to close 2012 and open 2013 because I need something to kick start the changes I want to make (and started making already) and help me feel like I can put the tears, anger, sadness and frustration in 2012 and carry only the happy memories with me to the next year.

What I want in 2013 is to get back to me. To fix the things that I don’t like and to explore the things that interest me. This may mean, going alone for part of it, or losing some things currently in my life.

I’ve already made a list of my goals for 2013 and I’m ready to get started.

I don’t want to spend 2013 as unhappy as I was in 2012. I want it to be so much more. And I feel so hopeful for that, and that is what I want to hold on to.

Happy New Year’s everyone!!!

 

8 Comments

  1. I love that you’re getting back to YOU in 2013. What a great goal AND attitude for the year.

    Happy New Year, lovely!

  2. katelin says:

    you can do it! i think 2013 will be a wonderful year and so far it’s off to a lovely start. i hope your year is full of all sorts of highs (and maybe a visit to LA?) and fabulous things. xo

  3. Marjolein says:

    I hope 2013 brings you everything you wish for!

  4. I absolutely love the feeling of having a clean slate and a reset button. I’m so sorry about those low lows. I hope you’re able to find a little more balance this year. Cheers to a great 2013!

  5. 2012 was a tough, rather unhappy year for me as well. Wishing you the best in 2013!

  6. Kez says:

    I hope your 2013 is wonderful. There’s something really great about ringing in a new year full of hopes and dreams, like a fresh start :)
    x

  7. LWLH says:

    I love your attitude girl!!
    Happy New Year love.

 

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