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28 April 2013

When goals don’t exactly go as planned

By: Jessica B.
Tagged: Random

Hello everyone! I know I’ve been gone for a while again, but things have been a bit busy. But I am back today to talk about goals.

This may not come as a surprise, but, I’m a bit rigid about my goals. If I’m committed to them, I commit 100% and cannot settle for not meeting them. That means, if things change in making those goals, I get upset or even frustrated. It wasn’t going how I planned? I WILL NOT STAND FOR IT.

For example, I set a goal for this year of learning to run and completing a race. I joined a running group through Chicago Endurance Sports and was set to run a 5K with my group today.

I did not run that race :(

As I’ve written here, not long after I started running, I was sidelined with a frustrating and annoying injury that had me laid up for 2 weeks and in physical therapy (which I’m wrapping up now).

So, I didn’t get to “meet” my goal of learning running and completing a race, well, not completely. And leading up to today, I’ve struggled with feeling like I’ve failed. But I didn’t. And I have to remind myself of that because my goal of doing this is for 2013, which isn’t over yet. There is still time. And just because I didn’t run this race, doesn’t mean I won’t run another.

To help me get out of this spiral of negativity, I decided to make my own, unofficial 5K. The “Lakeview 5K,” where I mapped a 3.5 mile course in my beloved Chicago neighborhood.

So, this morning, I got up, stretched, dressed and set out to run that course. And to be safe, I brought my bus pass and credit card in case of emergency.

But I didn’t need them. Because I finished.

I ran/walk the entire course at at a 3/2 interval (as prescribed by PT), and kept a consistent 12.3 minute mile, which I was pacing at before I was injured.

I made it through the entire run with absolutely no pain and only a few moments of feeling worn out. There were moments that I wanted to give up and just walk, or I felt a tingle in my ankle and feared the pain would start again, but I just said, “you can do this, keep going,” and I did.

3.5 miles running/walking may be nothing to many people but for me, this is a huge accomplishment. I cannot stop smiling and feeling a sense of immense pride in myself.

So I didn’t complete my full goal yet. But I will.




03 April 2013

Silver Linings

By: Jessica B.
Tagged: Random

So, if you’ve read my last two posts, you know that things have been a little bumpy the last few weeks. Between the running injury and closure, it’s been a little bit of a down cycle.

But now it’s a new month and I can’t fix what’s happened, so I’m trying to be more positive about things. And to quote a friend of mine, I’m looking at my silver linings.

And without further ado, here are the silver linings to having a bum ankle, not being able to work out and having a scab on your heart ripped off and exposed:

  • Cooking. I am able to do more at home right now and make actual meals, not eat popcorn or cereal for dinner on a regular basis (full disclosure: I’m eating cereal now)
  • Trip planning. Plenty of time to get my two-week trip to Spain planned and organized a bit more
  • Breaking in new shoes. My riding boots are the only comfortable shoes I own right now so there’s an excuse now to break in my new pair (YAY!)
  • To help my ankle feel better, I need to massage it. Hey, I found a ton of random massage oils in my “lady drawer.” Clearly this is an opportunity to use them
  • Catching up on current events. My PT exercises take about an hour each day to do. Plenty of time to watch the news and get more familiar with what’s going on (that’s not with the Colbert spin)
  • Slow down. I tend to run about, going from one thing to another. And with having trouble walking, it’s forced me to really slow down. I won’t lie, I hate it. I hate asking my friends to walk slower or tell them to go ahead of me because I can’t walk that fast. Some have been nice about it, some haven’t, but maybe a little slower pace is what I need for me right now

That’s all I got for now. I start PT tomorrow (officially) and let’s hope I’m back up and moving soon.