05 January 2015

Auntie love

By: Jessica B.
Tagged: Random

Yesterday, I watched at least 10x a one-minute video of my nephew laughing, which was captured by my SIL’s phone.

It was so fabulous.

The sound of his laughter is my new favorite sound (well, actually champagne popping is still my absolute favorite, so, sorry nephew).

You guys, auntie love is the absolute best.

My nephew is only 4.5 months old and I fucking love that kid so much, it is the best kind of overwhelming.

His face, ears, nose, mouth and smile are so cute, I love them.

Sure, he cries, loudly sometimes, and spits up…a lot, and on a regular basis I’m smelling like formula or trying to detangle his fingers from my hair or necklace, but when he looks at me and smiles, like he kinda maybe knows who I am, it just melts my cold dead heart.

When I was home, sometimes, we sat in the back seat together and I sang to him or sang along to music for him and we just stared at each other. He probably thought “who the hell is this person and why is she sitting next to me?” And me thinking/saying, “I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.” Creepy!!

Each time I saw him this fall, it was like something new was happening. He was smiling, giggling, chewing his hand (or anything he can fit in his mouth) and then…ROLLING OVER. And now, I won’t get to see him for a few months and it kind of breaks my heart. He’ll be so different then! Different? He’s so cute now!

The photos on my phone are now 90% of him. I even marked some as “favorites” just so I can streamline what I show others. For real.

When I said goodbye to him after Christmas, I cried. Hard. Like really hard. Holding him as tight as I could, kissing his head and cheeks and his perfect nose, ears, etc. It just killed me that I won’t see him again for a while. What if he forgets about me???

The hardest part about loving him so much is that I’m not local. So I miss these moments with him, seeing him daily, seeing him do new things (like roll back over again), hearing his voice and that look he gives me when he sees me and just is like “HI HOW ARE YOU. I MAY KNOW WHO YOU ARE.”

My SIL and brother do a great job of sharing photos but I just wish I could put a camera on him so I could see him at any second. Yeah, it sounds creepy, but it’s family, so it’s okay.

So, that’s all I have for now. Given the heavier topics covered here lately, I thought I’d just write about how much I love my nephew. Because I do, a lot.

Do you guys feel this way about your nieces or nephews?

4 Comments

  1. Stevie says:

    As soon as I got the phone call that my first niece was born, something in me totally changed. I was a long time nanny and had some really special relationships with some kiddos because of it, but it’s nothing compared to sharing DNA with one. I have two nieces and a nephew and they are my favorite people on the planet! Everything they do is adorable, hilarious, ingenious, etc. Being an auntie has also made me appreciate my relationship with my own auntie and has made it that much more special.

  2. Nora says:

    I don’t have any tiny nephews or nieces (like Kez, big age gap between my hubs and his older sisters), but thankfully most of my friends have been procreating like crazy so there is always a baby or a toddler around for us to see. They are so fun to hold, play with, see the changes, growth and etc. Thank goodness for photos and technology so hopefully you won’t miss out on too much while you’re gone!

  3. Awwww :) He is one lucky little boy to have you in his life – in whatever capacity you can be there! So much will change but I PROMISE they never stop being adorable. In fact, they get cuter, just when you think the cuteness has worn off. I know you’ll have many more years of cuteness to enjoy ;)
    I have grown nephews and a niece (massive age gap between my husband and his oldest siblings) and I kind of felt bummed I missed the boat on being there for them. A couple of them have a much younger sibling but sadly the relationship has been strained with their mother over the years so I missed the boat a lot when my nephew was little. I don’t really feel like a proper aunty :(
    We have a brand new nephew coming from another sibling in law next month – I am excited because I think we’ll get to share that joy from day 1 and I can’t wait. I just really want my brother to have kids one day now haha x

  4. Sara Strand says:

    Oh I know, I just became a first time auntie in November and my brother and his wife live two hours away. I hate it because I want to squeeze the guts out of the baby and it’s so hard to know if I’m being helpful or a total pain in the ass and they are just too nice to say it. Probably because I’d cry. HA! But I’m due with my third in May so I feel like if I can just get through then, the novelty of their baby will wear off. HA!